About Toes and Growth
Aug 21, 2023
This morning Mother Nature and I both struggled to get out of bed. The weight of fog and clouds pressed heavily on the horizon, just as my blankets pressed heavily on me, challenging my commitment to the new early morning schedule. I just had to smile and extend self compassion, knowing that natural rhythms influence this body of mine, and that it's ok to struggle at week 2 of back-to-school changes.
Change is challenging. Growth means change, so growth can be challenging. I will never say otherwise. What you will hear me say again and again is that growth is exceptionally rewarding. It provides a sense of victory that can fuel future growth efforts. Sometimes it's just hard to see our own growth.
This morning, after making it through the morning routine and getting my son to school, I had a neurological physical therapy appointment. My first in two years. While I continue to work on neuro-rehab with a specialized doctor, some other skills still need help, so I'm going back for another round to learn more, just like my son.
As my new helper Katie did all sorts of strength and functionality tests, I was delighted with a growth surprise. I can now feel whether my toes on my right foot are being pressed up or down. I couldn't do that two years ago, as a consequence of the stroke. Somewhere in the ongoing healing efforts, that spatial perception is beginning to be restored. That means new neural pathways have formed to replace the ones that were damaged! I almost wanted to cry right there in the PT gym.
Now I know that feeling your toes probably isn't a cry-worthy joy for you. I get that. My point is that we each have "growth points"--places where we are stuck or frustrated or hopeless. Joining this growth journey will invite you to identify those personal growth points. It may be a physical health challenge, an unhealthy relationship pattern, a faith struggle, or a critical inner voice.
Each of these things can wear us down, leaving us discouraged and weary. I totally understand that, friend! There were days and weeks where my blankets won and I stayed hidden in depression. But I'm here to witness to the power of growth. Intentional growth choices, encouraged by mentors and fellow travelers. Sometimes we each need someone like Katie was for me today to point out the progress and encourage our efforts as growth comes slowly. Slowly and beautifully.
I celebrate that you are here reading this. That means something in you is intrigued by this invitation for growth. Be curious! Consider embracing it whole heartedly. The bright sunlight of growth will be worth it, I promise!
